Showing posts with label self-remembrance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-remembrance. Show all posts

Saturday, January 8, 2011

welcome new year.


assalamualaikum....

lama dah tak update blog....
feels like forever.

hari ni dah hari ke sembilan sejak tahun baru 2011 bermula.
a new year has come to replace the year before.
macam tak percaya, tapi memang itulah hakikatnya.
bila masuk tahun baru semua orang sibuk tanya pasal azam baru.
tapi ada yang perasan tak ? azam tahun lepas pun ada yang kita tak fulfill pun.
ish la. saya bercakap bagi pihak diri saya sendiri dan nasihat untuk diri sendiri jugak.
kalau azam lama pun tak buat, inikan pulak nak masuk azam baru.
ibarat kerja sekolah semalam ada lagi tapi kita nak buat kerja sekolah hari ini dulu.
mana boleh. baiklah kita habiskan dulu benda yang tertangguh tu.
ini lagi satu perangai tak bagus.
suka tangguh kerja. itulah yang jadi stress bila kerja dah bertimbun timbun tak siap...
huhu...boleh sakit jiwa dibuatnya.
tapi nak buat macam mana. sendiri cari penyakit.
hahaha
so azam saya tahun ni.
habiskan semua azam tahun-tahun lepas yang tak habis lagi dan insyaAllah,
perbaiki diri sendiri supaya hari ini akan menjadi lebih baik dari semalam.
hee~

p/s: azam list berjela-jela pun, tak guna kalau tak buat.
insyaAllah. tanam azam supaya dapat laksanakan azam yang dah dibuat. hehe(^^,)


Wednesday, December 10, 2008

buhsan

buhsan weh pindah bangi...
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i want my oLd Life back....

(T.T)

Saturday, November 1, 2008

aku nak tukar background coLour

aku nak tukar kaLer kuning...

tp aku tau mesti ade hamba2 allah yang tidak berpuas ati dgn keputusan aku dan muLa mengomen...

aku pasti itu...

KUNING "terang sgt"..."sakit mata"..."x de warna Lain ker??"

kesimpuLannya....

aku pikirkan kemudian...

coz aku pening paLe skang...

Friday, October 24, 2008

berada di UK sekejap...

assaLamuaLaikum...

semenjak, dua menjak, tiga menjak nie...aku rase bumi da banyak menumpahkan air mata....
kesian puLak tengok...

ari nie...aku mcm biase bangun xde La awaL sgt tp xde La Lewat sgt (bg aku r..hehe)...
dr pg...mendung...panas tidak,tp hujan pon tidak...mendung sahaja....
aku ingt nak basuh kain..tp gayanyer mcm x sesuai jer.....
agak2 nak dkt ptg koL 3...aku tunggu2 gak....biLa....bumi akan menangis Lagi.....
sebab aku rase x baik memendam perasaan....mendung sepanjang hari membuatkan aku pon rase mendung gak....tp kena study....finaL nk dkt da...
akhirnyer bumi mengaLah jua dan meLuahkan perasaannyer.....cuaca yang agak sejuk tahap giga (tp aku sorang je yg rase camtu) membuatkan aku bangkit pergi ke katiL...sebabnyer??
aku rase katiL tu memanggiL2 aku untuk beradu di atsnyer...so,bkan saLah aku kan?!
hehe=)

aku semacam berada di aLam Lain dr org Lain je gamaknyer...org Lain pon sejuk jugak,tp cukup sekadar dgn seheLai sweater tersangkut di tubuh masing2...aku Lain puLa haLnya...
dengan baju,diLapisi puLa dgn sweater tebaL kuningku yang berbuLu2 gaya cam nak g meLawat kanggaru di austraLia,tambah Lagi puLa dgn seLimut tebaLku....

berteLeku di meja studiku menghadap kertas-kertas hasiL contengan waktu Lecturer tengah khusyuk mengajar di depan sambiL laju tangannya menukar sLide2 nota microsoft power point...x sempat pon nak menyaLin...

aku pening kepala+sejuk tahap giga+cam x sedap badan=aku makan panadoL+tidur sekejap.....
serasa mcm penyakit berLumba2 nak menakLuki tubuh badan aku yang agak sLim n sLender nie (bukan aku ckp...was n iLa yg cakap)

sampai biLa tah aku akan berada di merbok(sebut gaya sLang) , UK nie??!!
*merenung ke masa hadapan*

Thursday, October 23, 2008

final is approaching..

assaLamuaLaikum...
cam x caye...da nak finaL...tp aku reLek je...tp bukan d shopping kompLek...huhu (quote from nabiL)
takot...aku byk agi x stdy...carry mark pon boLeh bLa r...
xnak kantoi kat sni...nt aku tergapai-gapai keseorangan...nak2 g s.alam....
arap2 Lps r dgn jayanyer

Sunday, October 19, 2008

pe keje tah aku TAG mengeTAG nie?


1.How old are you?
19 years oLd...

2. are you single?
singLe but not avaiLabLe..

3. in what age do you think you’ll get married?
im not sure myseLf... i wanna kid but dont want husband...(can a?)

4. do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now??
who La??you teLL me then...

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
not sure dowh...

6. do you want a garden/beach wedding, or the traditional wedding?
garden + traditionaL =tradentional

7. your ideal motif?
nak2 ade entrance kat garden 2 for me+bridegroom...=) pas2 kitaorang akan ada satu sesi nie,di mane pengantin Lelaki akan membaca satu tekz about all the things he wanna say about me or our relationship n me also have a text where i can express my feelings n thoughts about him,the things that i like n hate, since the first day we met...

8. where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
me nak2 sgt g jepun...but it depends on him too...we'LL both decide together...

9. how many guests do you think you’ll invite?
xnak besar2 sgt...but i guess mesti kena ajak all my fren+sedara mare beLa ayah+sedare mare beLa umi+my sis frenz+neigbours+n other who involve in my Life directLy or in directLy...(xnak ade org kecik ati nanti kaLau x dijemput...) nie x kire my husband guests Lg... $-p

10. do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
simpLe but wiLL give 1001 enjoyabLe memory 2 us...

11. do you want the traditional vows or something you’d make up on your own??
akad nikah sure2 r...n then i've alwayz want this kind of things not a vows but sort of Like that...

12. how many layers of cake do you want to have?
nak2 wat kek sendiri Leh...?!(tengok bape yg Larat r)

13. do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or at a simple place?
kat grand entrance kat garden tuh...

14. when do you want to get married, evening or morning?
morning aLways bring good mood...


15. you’d rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
La..kan da kate kat garden...outdoors then...

16. do you like a grand entrance for your groom?
of coz ma...

18. name the song/tune you’d like played at your wedding??
nak wat joget Lambak Le??huhu...i will List down aLL my faveret song+his favourite song+our favourite song and pLay it at my wedding...(xnak asyik Lagu selamat pengantin baru...bosan...)

19. are you a morning person or a night person?
night, i guess...because at that time is the real me came out.....

20. do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
cheerful and happening ceremony...everyone is happy...not just me n my hubby...

21. what age do you want to get married?
bape kaLi nak tanye da...

22. describe your ideal husband/wife.
herm...susah soaLan nie...kaLah SPM paper...i guess i wanna a person who wiLL fit me in every aspect of our Live n vice versa...

23. do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
me=Like guna tangan je...adat meLayu mesti dikekalkan...

24. champagne or red wine?
jus mangga...n his faveret drink...

25. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
we'LL discuss it together...

26. money or household item?
money for me....

27. who will pay for the bills?
we'LL pay it together if he dont mind...

28. are you ready for married life?
i guessed not....but i wanna children now... (^.^)

29. do u think you will still be a virgin until u get married?
insyallah...mintak simpang perkara2 yang buruk dan x baik nie...

30. will u always be true to your wife/husband?
i wiLL insyallah...n hope he does the same thing..

31. how many kids do u like?
terima je rezeki yang allah bagi...but i'd Like 2 have 5 children..Like my sibLings...1st babyboy...so,he can take good care of his brothers n sisters...

32. a new house for a newly wed or an old one?
x kisah je memane pon...ikut kemampuan dan keseLesaan...seeLoknyer rumah baru r.......

33. will u celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding, or diamond wedding?
wathe??

34. what kind of cuisine would u like for ur wedding?
erm...semestinyer makanan kegemaranku...ayam masak Lemak ciLi api,yg Lelain tanyer my husband...

35. will u record ur honeymoon in a cd or dvd?
i,myseLf wiLL go around with my DSLR n take a Lot of pic...since im taking the pic,my hubby can record our wedding then....

36. whose wedding plans would you like to know next???
choose 5 person as Your friend?
WASILAH SENGAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yg Lelain...illi,coda,fara,aloy,sha,shafey,kak syira cayunk

di tag...

di tag oLeh ahmadridhwanazmi.....


What were you doing before this?
upload my pic in the computer

If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
2 have my own path of Life that i choose

If you are the opposite gender, what would you do?
being a good brother 2 my sis...

What would you do with a billion dollars?
wahhhh...BILLION??erm...cannot think rite now,coz there are a L0t of things i wanna do...

Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
i wiLL make sure im not...

Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
both....luv someone is interesting, being loved by someone is exciting...but Loving someone that u Love is everything...

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
not sure...never faLL in Love...

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
wat bodo je r...xkan nk rampas hak org kowt...
huish...mintak simpang...

Have u ever been labeled as a snatcher?
never if im not mistaken

What takes you down the fastest?
when my sis is hurt...

How would you see yourself in ten years time?
insayallah....a good lawyer, a loyal wife, an interesting mother

What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
he Like literature n artistic....(dwan)

Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?married and rich..who would answer anything else?
can i choose married n rich??? (tamak ker?)

What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
tutup aLarm yg memekak...

Would you give all in a relationship?
insyallah...i'll try my bez n i hope he does the same...

If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
rase2nyer mcm akan eLakkan k0wt....

Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
hish...sensitivity kaum btoL soaLan nie...
herm....i had not forget n forgive the thing that she had done 2 me....
i hope that someday....she wiLL reaLise that my intention is for her own good actuaLLy...

Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
singLe is freedom...i want 2 do aLL the thing that i Like first b4 invoLve myseLf with the reLationship thingy...

Describe yourself in one word
one word jew??
mane cukup...
erm....
kuning kowt??
coz thats the frequent word i heard ppl always taLk bout me..(^.^)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

insyaLLah...

saLam...
aku akan ingatkan diri sendiri utk mendedikasikan entry tok my other sibLings...
sory ye...sy kan update...tp mungkin mengambiL mase beberapa ketika utk siap...
maaf in advance...

*kamu semua juga penting utk saye....*

the road not taken

ROBERT FROST


THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.



i really fond of this poem...
it really refLect me a Lot in many circumstances in my Life...
i think it do reflect everyone in their life too..
from the small matter to the matter-of-life decision i hav 2 make...
even the path that i took now is not the path that i had chosen myseLf...
my future had been decided by him...
it is far from my imagination...
for me whatever he decided is the best way and for my own good...
without him....
i am no one...
i will never go anywhere...
i will never be what i am today...

once i took this path,i told myself...
aLthough he has chosen this path for me,the end decision was still in my hand...
but stiLL..
i'm not regretted that i had chosen this path...
although it is not really the path that i wanted 2 traveL earLier...
but now im starting to expLore more and Liking the Life that i have now...
it is all thank to him...
because i know...
he had chosen the best path for me for the rest of my Life...
but then..i wish i couLd traveL the other path that i wanted to...
maybe my Life wouLd be so much different from now...
how fortunate i am if i can...

but stiLL we had to make decision in Life...
there is aLways something that we must sacrifice in other to gain other things...
(this is qouted from Sir Wong-my economy lecturer)

and so, i dedicate this entry to him...
i miss hearing him said "assaLamuaLaikum" whenever he caLLed me...
missing him to scoLd me if i careLess in my study...
missing him to ask me if i'm okay or not....
missing a Lot of thing bout him...
wishing that he is here with me...
giving me his advice whenever i feel down...
but then,he is far from me...
he had chosen the path that spLit us apart....
stiLL....i miss him...
thank you for whatever you have done to me...
thank you for choosing the path that i Lurve so much now...
thank you for helping me to be what i am now...
for aLL that i.thank.you.

to my dearLy,Loving,beLoved brother....

Benyazwar Bin Mohmd
you r the 0ne n 0nLy...
h0pe u wiLL aLways be happy with ur Life and may aLLah bLess u...



ur sis

qoutation 4 today...

"Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper."--Robert Frost

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

wanna read??

i took the test from someone eLse bLog...(credit 2 u)




Personality Type Report for didie~innocence~

Your Personality Preferences

EXTROVERT
You are social and outgoing. (how did u know ha?) You are most comfortable when with other people and experiencing the world first hand. Interaction with others and first hand experiences energize you. It is not unlike you to start conversations with strangers. (touche)
You have a preference for the outer world: people, activities, and things. Other people provide you with a mirror, sounding board to help you develop ideas and plans. Being alone may sap your energies. Your concept of the world is derived from experiencing it firsthand and then drawing conclusions.

INTUITIVE
While you do process information through your senses you add a twist to your processing by relying on intuition and serendipity. You look for undercurrents of meaning and abstractions in what you experience physically. (again?!) You do not just see things just as they are, but as what they could be. While you may rely on common sense at times, you trust inspiration far more.

PERCEIVING
You like to have as much information as possible before making a decision. (giggle)
Putting off a final decision until the last moment does not make you uncomfortable.
(giggle again)Indeed once a decision is made, a course plotted, you may feel a bit uneasy, because you feel bound to a certain course of action. You would much prefer to wait and see what happens. You enjoy the opportunity to improvise. Commitments are not etched in stone to you, and are changeable.

THINKING
You evaluate data and reach conclusions by using your ability to apply logical, objective analysis to the information before you. Your thinking process values consistency and fairness over the affect your decisions will have on others. You compare courses of action logically and make your choices based upon what consequences you see them as having. If there is something wrong with a plan, you are the one to ferret it out. (once again) It is important to remember that this does not mean you are cold and unfeeling, but that your thinking process is analytical.


Your Personality Type
Extrovert/Intuitive/Thinking/Perceiving

You are outspoken (so true) and love a challenge or debate. (sounds Like me) Social by nature, you are very charming and witty. [you're teLLing me...(^.^) ] You value your freedom. (of course) You can be very creative and resourceful, spontaneous and impulsive. (sumtime) You are a risk-taker who is aware of all the possibilities your actions will create. You are curious about almost everything. (everytime)

In relationships you are charismatic, quick-witted, and can keep up your end of any conversation. Instead of judging your friends and loved ones, you use your energies to understand the motivations behind their behavior. (this is the test said,not me..but true..hehe) You are intellectually and spiritually growth oriented, and do well with a partner that shares these qualities. You also have a bit of the adventurer in you and do well in the company of like-minded people. Like all of life's experiences, you want your relationships to be full of excitement and adventure. (i hope so..without excitement..life will be so boring)

Famous People of Your Type:

John Adams, James A. Garfield, Rutherford B. Hayes, Theodore "Teddy" Roosevelt, Thomas Edison, Lewis Carrol, Suzanne Pleshette, George Carlin, Valerie Harper, John Candy, John Sununu, Weird Al Yankovick, Alfred Hitchcock, Tom Hanks.

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:

Actor, advertising director, lawyer, programmer, engineer, entrepreneur, inventor, marketer, doctor, psychologist, social scientist, professor, and writer.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

yesterday

assaLamuaLaikum...
smLm nak dijadikan cerita...
cuti ujung minggu...weekend...
s0...aku p0n muLakan La jaduaL cuti aku...bLa cuti je..automatik akan bgn Lewat...
mmg semuLa jadi..
kdg2 aku x nak...
tp mate nie susah nak buka time2 cuti...
kaLau dLu aku x kisah sgt r...
tp skg buLan puase...Ramadan aL-Mubarak...
x baik La kowt nak tid0 sampai Lewat2...smpai tgah ari...
kurang pahaLa puase aku...
penat je berpuase tp x manfaatkan buLan yg muLia nie ngan buat perkara2 yg berfaedah...
s0,kesimpuLan dr eksperimen aku nie...
Lu pikir La sendiri...
hehe=)
juz kidding..
aku rase aku kena r kurang2 kan tid0 buLan puase nie..
manfaatkan dgn sebaik mungkin....
i guess dis is aLso an advice 4 others t00...
ch0w..

Monday, September 1, 2008

Ramadan aL-mubarak

saLam...



1st day 0f ramadan c0mes again....
syukur aLhamduLiLLah..i stiL have the chance 2 experience it..



i d0 not feel Like s0 excited though bc0z i have aLredy fasted in the past few weeks...



n juz 2 days b4 ramadan aLs0 i had fasted....hehe=)




i miss my sis big time...
wanna kejut kan her sahur n berbuka same2...
da La dier tanah Liat nak bgn sahur..
nie La gamaknyer bLe da jauh dr fameLi...

juz wanna wish aLL the musLim around the w0rLd epi fasting..byk2 kan La beribadat n jgn p0ntneng p0se taw!!!

may ALLAH bLess aLL 0f us throughout the m0nth...

ch0w....

p/s: i Like the pic...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

ehem...ehem...

assaLamuaLaikum...
Let me start 0ff wit bismiLahirahmanirrahim..
im juz starting 2 use dis bL0g as a medium 4 me 2 express my th0ughts, feeLings, n 0pini0n...
d0 c0mment me if u wanna share sumthing wit me 0r others n if u disagree wit my p0st 0r juz wanna say hi 2 me...
insyaLLah...i wiLL repLy if i d0 have time...
dats it 4 n0w...